Arangetram:i finally got to watch the arangetram video!! it took me so long to update...since i couldnt really reflect on all that went on on april 24th without seeing exactly what happened and how we did. let's just say i was happy when i watched the video :).

it's weird though, it seems like none of that happened..and it was all just a part of a really really long 7-month dream lol. like all of a sudden life went back to "normal." lol idk, but i do know i loved every minute of it. this was the first time i was nervous about performing in YEARS...and that feeling was so cool!! i feel like i can do anything now

i seriously have THE best mom ever. i mean wow..i hope im even half a good mom as her when i have kids, cuz even that will be enough. i think this arangetram made me realize that. lol ahh im so freakin lucky...i have the best family/friends/sister...and i do something that i really really have a passion for. i think most people who have had arangetrams and will have arangetrams did/will feel like this.

well thank you everyone for coming...you were a part of one of the few biggest events of my life :):)

School: school is almost over!! uh..omg. first year of IB is over. i'm proud of myself for staying with the diploma. it's funny cuz right when people drop out, they act like it's the shittiest thing ever ("oh but it IS the shittiest thing ever" >> that might've just crossed ur mind..?). it's the best education u're gonna get in high school for free, and im just taking advantage of it, and i want that diploma. i think it's weird that i never felt the pressures of IB this year, even with arangetram. i am so ready for next year, it's only gonna be  harder >> but i also wont have a huge dance recital that i'd be spending 10 hrs a week prepping for.

Summer: this summer's gonna be so much fun..with SOE and all. 5 weeks in UA in a dorm taking physics!! yess that's gonna rock, but i really hope babuu can go :(! It'll be my first taste of college and i still have a year of high school left.

Future: i like having my future planned out. and i think im done planning the rough sketch: UA, 6-7 years of college, pharmacist, meet someone somewhere in the middle, save money, maybe get married, go around the world *meaning every country and get a rock from everywhere, come back home, work more, have 2 kids: siddharth and sahana, publish something, try becoming famous :D. lol and if not..i have other plans :P. i think that's a fulfilling life >> but in the end i need to be healthy and happy, of course.

Boys: but for now..i really need to learn how to drive. like soon. and i have to accomplish two things next year. and i will. and it's also been a while since i've felt confused. and wow i am so confused right now. and yes it's about a boy. i havent gotten all excited to see a guy in the longest time. and suddenly it's happening again. and i dont want it to happen.

Aladdin: lol this is why i stick to cartoon characters. sighh i wish aladdin was real though..any guy problems would be solved then :).

People: this entry is so long, but i've had to write about a buncha things. oh yeah, some people at school have changed. lol it's just funny. a smile can go a long ways u know.

Prom:o0o and prom!! lol i didnt go to chandler's this year (will def. go next year), but i had soo0o0o0o0o0o much fun at dv's and horizon's!! thanx apurva and arpi for being really awesome/sweet dates.

Russell Peters: russell peters is in ONE week!! ahhhhh it's here!! i cant wait...lol first *real* show with smi i, weeeee!

Random: on a really random note...sometimes i feel like my optimism bothers some people. it really shouldnt but whatever. no one can make everyone happy.

wow that's enoughh...i guess the only thing that could be updated from this entry is the boy stuff.... i'll def. know whats going on with that next week :)

OMG i'm sooo excited!! you should come and share the excitement :D :P

questions? calllllll :)

my picture is with what I wrote, and sispoo's pic is with what she wrote. makes sense...

Nothingness

I woke up at night and my language was gone
No sign of language no writing no alphabet
nor symbol nor word in any tongue
and raw was my fear - like the terror perhaps
of a man flung from a treetop far above the ground
a shipwreched person on a tide-engulfed sandbank
a pilot whose parachute would not open
or the fear of a stone in a bottomless pit
and the fright was unvoiced unlettered unuttered
and inarticulate O how inarticulate
and i was alone in the darn
a non-i in the all-pervading gloom
with no grasp no leaning point
everything stripped of everything
and the sound was speechless and voiceless
and i was naught and nothing
without even a gibbet to hang onto
without a single peg to hang onto
and i no longer knew who or what i was
and i was no more
~Aharon Amir, translated from Hebrew by Abraham Birman

it's monday..and i dont have to go to school :: i love spring break :). i was cleaning my backpack today and found that poem in my TOK binder, yay for words :D!

SPRING BREAK!! perfect timing, as usual. plans? catch up on life and practice practiceeee for arangetram *now in omgg..like 40 days!*

catching up on life includes: holi!, learning that one dance, drawing pix of aladdin, sleeeping *i've missed out on so many good dreams :)*, taking pix with smi i, finishing hw :P, NaU to see sispoo perform!!, watching movies, reading what I want to read, and *DANCE* << most important :)

so the backstreet boys are reunited, and they're NOT coming to arizona..someone shoot me now :( fudgee >O.

comment :)

four more months till this year's over. woww

quick update: cultural assembly went really well, we had so much fun up there, i couldn't go to DC which sucks like crazy cuz a week in a new place hangin out with sachin woulda been awesome!, hmm started SAT classes with neha and mackenzie, preparation for arangetram is going well, india nite was really cool (tristan, mackenzie and scott came!!), then the wedding was awesome also.

i think i know the difference between a crush and actually liking someone now..oh yeah, and i've realized that thinking about the "big picture" isn't always smart and liking someone just for the moment is worth it too.

hmm, well i guess i'm only gonna marry a brown boy...and thats not until i'm 25